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 I can no longer continue on this journey here. I have become someone that I am not! I will not let the Devil win! The pain that I am feeling today is an eye opener for sure. I have always been true to myself and to others! I gave it my all to try and support and encourage the buddies that I have. Boy did I get a slap in the face today, I’m usually a good judge of character! To all of my true buddies, I wish you good luck on your journeys! You will accomplish your goals one by one! I wish that I could be here to support you, but obstacles have gotten in the way. It is time for me to take a different path! I love ya all and wish you the best in everything you do! You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

So I was just playing around on the site today and I clicked on my blogs. After that I clicked on manage, then comments. It was so weird, I had like 5 comments from different people that never posted to my blog, I had to approve them first! Hmmm…….I just thought that was weird! It was also good to read comments that I never knew were there!  I was just letting all of you know!  Please let me know if this has happened to any of you.

I hope you all have a wonderful day today!

I read a couple of blogs today that really made me think. I really have lost touch with my inner self over the past couple of years. I went to beauty school about ten years ago, I loved my profession. I was always up to date with the latest trends, I dressed stylish and my nails were always done. I had a wild side that I loved, ( and now miss) I always stood out in the crowd! I was me!

This is not the case anymore however. I have let myself go! I now find myself hiding and only go out when I have to. I only have a couple of outfits, because it is just to discouraging to go shopping. I tell myself why get new clothes anyway, I want to lose weight first. Hmmm, ok…….three years later! I’m at the end of my rope, I can’t do it anymore!!! Who am I? I’m actually crawling in my own skin!!!

But, guess what?!  That’s it!!! I’ve had enough! I’m done!  After crying and dwelling in my own self pitty, I realized that life is to precious and time goes by to fast! I will not let another breath consume me regarding my weight!  So I am starting a new journey to find myself, the one that I love and connect with so deeply! I want that confidence that I once had and the determination that came along with it! I want me! 

I’am ready to say good bye to my past and hello to my future! So, I’m off to take a breath of fresh air and taste the sweetness of thin! Cheerz…….to a new beginning!

Thank you all for your prayers, they helped out alot!  My family and I were very fortunate, the hurricane was not as bad were I live.  There was some strong winds and minor damage. It was so incredibly facinating to watch it, although scary at the same time! I’m sure that does not make sense, but I do not know how else to describe it.  The results were anything but amazing though. My heart goes out to everyone that is still struggling with the after math of the storm. Most of my neighborhood and a lot of other areas in Louisiana are still without electricity, and that makes it extremely difficult in 90 degree weather! Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers.  Thanks everyone! Have an blessed day!